Sunday, May 24, 2015

Waiting.

We've been doing a lot of waiting lately and I'm sure you have too. We have waited for phone calls, appointments, results, for pokies to be done, for insurance approval etc. we wait for things everyday. Though, this generation is not very good at it. It's something we really struggle with, we want the answers now we don't see any reason to wait. We get anxious when the Internet doesn't work right away, mad when we are put on hold, and angry when the stop light is too long. I agree, waiting is very hard. Well waiting for all of Liam's appointments we've struggled with wondering why we have to wait so long. It always seems like it's because the doctor hasn't gotten to it yet or the lab hasn't finished it yet and we blame it on people and doctor's offices but it's not them. It's God. He is teaching us something. Something so valuable that it's also so hard to learn. Today, at church our pastor taught on the Semon on the Mount. About meekness. About waiting. He read Psalm 37. These verses stood out to me:
Psalm 37:4-11
4 Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. 
5 Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass.
6 He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your justice as the noonday. 
7 Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
8 Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; Do not fret—it only causes harm. 
9 For evildoers shall be cut off; But those who wait on the LORD, They shall inherit the earth.
10 For yet a little while and the wicked shall be no more; Indeed, you will look carefully for his place, But it shall be no more.
11 But the meek shall inherit the earth, And shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.

Our future is Christ. We wait, and have hope and have joy in this world NOT because this world brings us those things but because in light of our future, waiting is worth it. Keep waiting! Hold on!

Don't wait by sitting idly. He tells us to wait actively. Delight ourselves in the Lord, commit our ways to the Lord- actively waiting on Him. If we sit idly and wait we are bringing no glory to God. 

Romans 8:18-25
18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.
19 For the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God.
20 For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of Him who subjected it in hope;
21 because the creation itself also will be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God.
22 For we know that the whole creation groans and labors with birth pangs together until now.
23 Not only that, but we also who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, eagerly waiting for the adoption, the redemption of our body.
24 For we were saved in this hope, but hope that is seen is not hope; for why does one still hope for what he sees?
25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance.
This hope we have!!! 

Some words from a John Piper sermon I listened to. 
If you trust Jesus for your best life now, here on this earth, you don't have the kind of faith the Bible describes. Your best life is the eternal reality of fellowship with God in Heaven.

Isaiah 40:31
31 But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. 
Wow! This verse is so full of God's strength and power. Look what waiting will produce!




This life isn't easy, and it's not intended to be, Jesus promised trials and tribulations and those will bring us closer to God. They will glorify Him and make us more like Jesus. I have found that after learning more about what waiting is to God, I desire To live for Him here while I wait for the future. This waiting on Him is hard but  keep your eyes on the prize! Jesus! All I want is Him. While I am here I pray He draws me nearer to Him. I pray this waiting will cause us to need Him and trust Him more. It has and it's hard. Don't be anxious, fall into His arms and look to the future glory! Waiting is good when you know what's next.



Wednesday, May 13, 2015

The Test & Results

On Monday night we fed Liam late, around 9:30 since he had to fast after midnight. We expected that he would complain about being hungry and had prepared ourselves for that for the morning. Our appointment started at 8:30 at the Children's Hospital in Highlands Ranch. We left early and Liam asked for breakfast once and didn't care much when we told him he couldn't eat right now. On the 35 minute drive there he started to get nervous after we told him where we were going. We did tell him  before this what was going to happen so he wouldn't be caught off guard. I held his hand and when we arrived at the hospital we walked in and felt God's presence. The hospital is only a year old and it's a kids dream! There are wagons instead of wheelchairs, toys, beautiful kid friendly pictures, it's so colorful and EVERYONE that worked there greeted us warmly was happy and friendly and wanted to talk to Liam. Talk about easing fears. We got to the infusion lab and again were greeted by friendly faces. They confirmed we were all healthy and gave Liam and arm band with his info. The nurse took us into the first check in room and took Liam's vitals. She then brought us to the lab where everyone had their own room. He was her only morning patient and gave him the choice of which room he wanted- he was excited to pick!

The two nurses came in and brought all their IV tools. They took time to talk to Liam and he was his cute, sweet little self. They started looking at his arms to figure out which one would be good for the IV and explained to him what was happening. He sat in Danny's lap and started to get upset, we held him down and she got the IV in the first try. That was the worst part. It was over quickly though and he went back to playing.the nurse explained everything to us and then brough in the Clonidine for Liam to take. He drank it and she came back in 15 minutes later for his blood pressure (and every 15 minutes for his blood pressure for 2 hours) at 30 minutes after taking the medicine she came in and drew blood from the IV (blood was taken every 30 minutes for two hours). At this point he had fallen asleep and was out for the remainder of the two hours. 

The nurse then started the Arginine, which was pushed through his IV during a 30 minute period. He woke up during this time and was groggy but ok. He let the nurse do anything she needed and was so cooperative. Near the end of this part he started to get pale, unresponsive and just very "off". I started to get worried and called the nurse in who checked on Liam and said its very normal due to the medicine, the fasting, and the long day. When we were about 45 minutes from being done she said we could order him food and he would be able to eat after the next blood draw. We were so excited, we had been told it would be a 6ish hour test and we were only at the 4 hour mark!  As long as he would eat we would get to go home soon! He ate 2 cookies :), though he was still very out of it and she released us. 
 We were only there 4.5 hours. The nurses were so pleased that Liam was so easy to work with! Liam slept the whole way home and then for a few hours at home. He woke up pretty much back to his normal, spunky, active self! 

She had mentioned it would be about 48 hours before we would get the results.
I received a call today, around 3pm from Dr. Travers, Liam's endocrinologist. She explained that the normal kid has a level of at or above 10. The gray area is 7-10 and Liam's level was 2.76. A VERY clear indicator of Growth Hormone Deficiency.(GHD). She mentioned she also did a test for his cortisol level which was normal. She said the next step is an MRI. I asked why they do this and she explained that it is to rule out a tumor or deformity in his brain which could also be the cause of GHD( pituitary gland). It takes a lot of steps for insurance to approve it so it might be awhile but that since he's so young he would have it done at the Children's Hospitlal and be put under. As long as the MRI comes back normal we will proceed with the treatment. The treatment for Growth Hormone Deficiency is Growth Hormone shots that Danny or I would give every night. Which is a bit overwhelming but one step at a time.

The last two days have been a whirlwind and I don't know how long it's been since I prayed so much, read so much or thought so much about God. Having a child go through something like this is truly heart wrenching. You never want to see your baby in pain, traumatized or pleading with you not to let the nurse poke him. I wouldn't trade these two days for anything though. Both Danny and I have felt God's undeniable presence the whole time. Walking into the beautiful hospital, meeting the nurses, Liam being so cooperative, getting results quickly and getting such a clear answer plus many other things were 100% God's tender mercies and grace. The love we have received in the form of prayers, Facebook messages, texts, meals, goodies for Liam and calls has been so overwhelming and so humbling and shows us God's love. God has changed my heart. For people, for him, for Liam. I know Liam is a temporary gift to Danny and I. He belongs FULLY to God. He was formed by God and his life is His. I pray this whole experience will be used to glorify God, and help Danny, Liam, Oliver and I to be able to help other families going through things like this. We are ready for this journey! Praise to God alone!